This I wrote around Valentine's Day this year.

One thing I have noticed is that all humans have the universal ability to love. And all humans are on a quest to find love, to find acceptance, whether they want to admit it or not.
As I was making my rounds on the internet, I stopped by PostSecret, as it's sunday. Since Valentine's Day happens to be this week, all of the secrets were love-related, and they had an impacting video full of other secrets.
It's surprising and it's not to see the volume of love-related secrets. Being myself, I try not to dwell on romance, and forget that it's such a universal thing. But at the same time, I realize that I am too a victim of this love experience.
God only knows how much I long for somebody that could understand me and accept me as more than a friend. And God only knows that isn't going to happen right now. It seems everyone is moving into this relationship trend right now, and I desperately want to join the bandwagon. How come the one time I want to follow, I have no ability to? As far as I'm concerned, none of the boys want to take a dip in my fountain right now. And I don't know a large enough volume of them to find one that would.
So as I sit here in my longing, I realize that this blog has no point but for me to whine, but I also realize that I should be more grateful. I mean, I'm not living in an area that arranges me into a forced marriage at the age of fourteen, but this freedom is, at the moment, my burden.
I want a boy damnit.
Alas, I'll never find a valentine. How is it that I manage to find boys in the summer, fall and winter, but none of them last through "the holiday"?
Now, I could be whining about how I have a specific boy in mind and am facing a horrendously painful unrequited love situation, but I think that would be a lie. I don't have a boy in mind, and none of them return my love.
I'm not going to pretend that I'm all depressed and about to commit suicide either, because that would be outrageous, and I, too, get very annoyed with persons who do this. I am a very frustrated panda, however.
I know I have to wait. I know someone will come along at the right moment. I know that I shouldn't (and don't) put stock into high school relationships, because all they are is practice for the ones we come across as adults. I know all this, but that doesn't stop me from wishing.

If anyone has decided to read this, I doubt they will have made it to the end, but if they did, props man. I give you props. Obviously you must care somewhat about me as a person, or just have nothing more constructive to do, but either way, I think you should be my best friend if you aren't already.

Oh, and if anyone wants to be my valentine, please, let me know. Even if it's just for a day, let's fall in love.
:)

Posted at 11:55 PM