This I wrote at the end of February:

So I was on the bus this morning listening to the Beatles, when I had a revelation. Thus emerging this blog:

I think I could use a readjustment. What I've realized is that there are things in life that will just... come to you.
Love is one of them. While love is something that generally comes in a constant stream from friends and family, I've realized that when it comes in terms of romance, it finds you.
Now, how this affects me...
What I need to do is get my life in line. Everything needs to be in line with my friends, family, grades, responsibilities, etc. before love will even think of finding me. I mean, why would something that was meant to happen happen before that? I need to work on just living life right now. There's so much I could be doing to fufill my life that I'm not.
When all my extra-currics slow down, I plan on addressing this. What made me think of this was a note Ryan wrote on facebook. He was talking about balancing our responsibilities on three levels, and I think he's right. I spend way too much time working on helping my smallest circle- those that are closest to me. I need to pay more attention to the expansive world around me. There's so much that I could be doing to help that I'm not. That's why I plan on volunteering, starting in april, at the recycling center and at least one other place. Right now I'm considering Noah's Ark or a homeless shelter or soup kitchen for that.
As for helping on a global scale, that won't be for a while. The most I can do right now is volunteer for the Obama campaign, because God only knows how global that is. But later I plan on joining the peace corps, and I'm sure I'll end up living in another country or working on a global scale. I just really want to help people.
As for right now, I just need to be more thankful for the amazing people I have in my life. They support me probably more than I realize most of the time, and I really should appreciate them more. Shar and Erika yesterday helped me more than I could possibly thank them for, and I realized how much my friends do care. I get by with a little help from my friends. And oh haven't I realized that lately. And boy, do I love them for it.
One thing Ryan said to me the other day as a blog comment kind of stood out to me: "Don't worry, the same thing will happen to all of us. We'll go off to college, meet some amazing people, fall in love, and enjoy life." And I realized that he was right. The only thing high school is worth is for shaping myself to be the person I'll be later in life, and establishing friendships that hopefully will last. Oh, and not to mention getting into college.
I realized (again as I listened to the Beatles) that everything really does happen for a reason. That there's nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be. What is meant to happen will happen. All I should worry about right now is how I can make myself better, and live my life. A relationship will come at the right moment.

Posted at 11:56 PM